The Connection of Us

Words do come easily to me

I won’t deny it.

There used to be days when I was lost for words, but they would always come back. Sometimes a little darker than when they left. Those days, I would let the words come out in slow, painful drip drop drips until I had bled out and excreted all the broken heart pieces.

Felt better sometimes.

But since you… I have words. Yes. Of course. More then ever and never so blinding. I can’t see in front of me for the words occupying and ocularly dazzling my panoramic view. Of you. I have so many, they make love to each other endlessly in my mind and they make me watch, they love it when I watch and they tease me with floods and flames of love and pathways I’ve never seen before. They cry out in love and ecstasy and a pain (that I can’t look at) and they pay me no mind; I don’t exist for them. Then they fight with each other, these ardent words, and seduce me to the wall, begging me to please choose them to be released and then I let them take me as they want and I give them sweet, aching release onto my page. Or is it your page.

Our pages, I think.

If I had the power though, I would create with my fingers and palms, my heart and my mind, a language only we would know, only known by two souls.

A language only for Us

There would be no words articulated with our lips, they would be preciously saved for kisses and tastes and moments of breathlessness that we fear we’ll lose in the haste of placing a kiss before the next nanosecond ticks away.

There would only be movements and thoughts and desires encased in an embrace of something we will need to call True and Love and Us. There would be no sounds made by words which are becoming so so very poor and unworthy of this Connection. No.

A look and a touch and a gentle, hard as fuck caress of two bodies and hearts beating and wanting of the same path and kiss. A dance to a symphony to an epic orchestral movement of two souls made to collide in a space far from the warmth and love of each missing part’s face, reaching out across invisible seas of soundless fate and boundless destiny and through the quantum spaces of Love’s infinity. They silently found each other in a sea of words of broken hearts and sliver darts pointed straight at their light, deflected by a warrior’s shield of verse and perfected etchings of poetry , deep enough to drown in, close enough to be lifted out and placed face to face, with this…One Person. Far too perfect yet so imperfectly distant that the fibres of my heart begin to shred and part of their own accord, and weep at the clear choice of a fatefully paved way made of your voice.

And one more deluge will I allow to pour out for you until I place these words down for a short slumber…

This connection, misbehaving as it always wants to do, and placing its softest touch on the spaces between my heartbeats, as it pulls me closer to you, I fear I will let go one day. I won’t have the control I delude myself that I have. These pathways laid in front of me, until You, there was only one and it was mapped and slow and inevitable and then you, YOU did this to me. You made me look at this parallel road, as you loaded my existence with all these parts of You, and beat my doubt senseless with Truth and Love and now it’s all I can do to stop this pull of you and Us ripping my last remaining, always paining, chains of blaming invading apprehension, pulling down my walls, tearing me in two, but when I reach you…there’ll only be Us.

 

That’s all I wanted to say.

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    1. Fiery is effing uncontrollable most days H.

      What to do but let her speak.

      Most people fear to get too close you know!
      So I let her out in tiny little embers. But I think she went full ‘flame on’ here.
      Thanks for making me giggle πŸ˜‚βœ¨πŸŒŸ

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  1. Gorgeous outpouring from your soul… deep and prosaic and achingly tender. I loved the section about having a language just for two souls. *deep sighs* Love being able to read this side of your soul β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️

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    1. Thanks honey
      It did, literally come from my soul. Not sure what else to say except that I appreciate you and your reading of me so well and so deeply.
      A big hug for you.
      πŸ’‹πŸ’•πŸ’”β€οΈπŸ’“β€οΈπŸ˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜

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    1. Thank you G
      That means a great deal coming from you.
      I had a many a feeling to release here and I hope I did justice to what I was trying to express.
      Thank you for your generous comment. Really beautiful words from you πŸ’“

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    1. I like the mesmerising…
      It was different. It felt very different writing it. I mean have written long rambling NOT poems before but this one was…yeah different. I can’t think of a word either. I mean I probably could but I won’t.
      You’re in awe of this one…don’t know what to say my Lonely Author. It is literally a glimpse into my mind and heart and what goes on in there when I don’t know exactly how to articulate the flaming heartbeats.
      Did I say thank you.
      Thank you so much.
      ❀️😘
      😘

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  2. This was so powerfully spoken with so much emotion and passion that every word, every syllable just grabbed the reader by the collar and demanded attention. What a connection you made from words to reader and from reader to heart. To be given a simple match and create a blaze is what I see in the symbolize of this. One word was given and the connection cause a wave of essays that is beautiful. This was magnificent.🌹🌹

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    1. So sorry I couldn’t reply this gorgeous comment yesterday, life gets in the way sometimes.
      I can’t thank you enough for your words, truly. You really touched me. You kind of looked right through everything and understood and that’s wonderful.
      I do tend to create a blaze with a single spark of love. Can’t help myself. And if I demanded the reader’s attention… well yes that is very me. I want total focus on my words lol!

      Thank you so much.
      ❀️❀️πŸ”₯✨🌟

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      1. No need to apologize, I understand life gets busy. I appreciate you got back to me.😊. It’s my pleasure, reading your work is a treat and this piece was amazing and you did grab attention and hold it. Very powerful piece, you are so welcomeπŸ”₯🌹❀️❀️.

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  3. It seems like speechless is going to be my regular comment here. Your writing is so breathtaking. Firstly The Way You described words making love and kneading to be free and then how you went on to explain the deep connection you feel. It’s so beautiful, so powerful and strongβ™₯️β™₯️β™₯️β™₯️

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    1. I am actually blushing from this beautiful comment darling.
      Thank you seems a crappy thing to say! I was trying to explain something that is difficult to put into words, and ironically it took me a whole load of words to describe it!
      I feel things deeply. I can’t keep them inside, especially when they need to be heard by someone .
      I don’t mind if you’re speechless , love it when you visit regardless!
      Many hugs of love and cuddly things
      πŸ’•βœ¨πŸŒŸπŸ”₯

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      1. Oh my gosh, yes. I agree with you. You need to feel something very deeply to be able to emit that warmth and heat you feel when love takes over.
        Thank you honey β€οΈπŸ˜˜πŸ˜πŸ’“

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    1. This could have been the preface to my prose here.
      You are very insightful, Vampire Slayer.
      I can be a very lonely cosmos until fate finally allows a connection.
      Thank you for always being so kind and sweet
      πŸ’•

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    1. Oh my gosh, thank you and THANK YOU in capitals too!
      You’ve made my day with this comment!
      Truly appreciate you reading me.
      This piece is very close to my heart. Means a lot when it touches someone.
      Many hugs to you πŸ’•πŸ’•

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